Unexpected Twists and Turns

I was writing yesterday and my story took a turn that I hadn't planned on. It's like my fingers took on a mind of their own and went crazy. It just came out. I think it's going to work and, quite possibly, may even make my story a little better. I didn't outline my story ideas or anything before I started writing. I was just watching TV one night and this idea popped in my head so I ran to my computer and typed up the ideas before they had a chance to leave me forever and then things just kind of fell into place. I was picturing each scene in my head, hearing the dialogue, but never once until yesterday did I see this unexpected scene come up.

I have to say I'm getting nervous about my book the further I get into typing it. I'm scared that it's going to be complete crap and that I will have wasted all this time. Then again, I realize that even if it is crap, I haven't really wasted any time at all because I hear that the more you write, the better you get. It still scares me though, because I don't want it to be total crap. I want at least some part or parts of it to be good. I am determined to get this first draft typed up and go back and revise the first chapter or so that I know I need to fix, before I let anyone's eyes see it. I'm afraid if anyone sees it before I actually complete it and criticizes it in any way (even if it's constructive criticism) that I'm going to get discouraged and quit before it's done. So I have to finish it first and then I will take that scary step of letting someone actually read it. Ugh. I'm getting nauseous just thinking about letting someone else read it. Has anyone else gotten sick to their stomach at the thought of someone reading their book for the first time?

I'm looking forward to cranking out a few thousand words this weekend. I really had to slow down on my writing progress through the week because I was so busy with my day job and was only able to write in the evenings after the kids were in bed. My plan is to hit 20,000 words this weekend, which means I will have to type just under 5,000 words. I think that's manageable.

Have a great weekend everyone!